Just an ordinary morning. There was a regal man sitting up very straight on my couch. His presence was notable and strongly comforting. I sensed a very unsettled spirit nearby. I see him with water all over him, but he is not in the water. He keeps saying mother fucker, like he is speaking to me, implying that I don’t understand the severity of his situation. He was about 40 year’s old, very twitchy, thin and very uncomfortable in his lack of humanness . The monk man who seems to be the mismatched twin of him seems gentle, putting his hand on my hand asking for help. The duplicity is a gentle man asking politely, who is sad and a cocky streetwise dick, swearing and pissed off. I do not feel any rise of energy from the angry, twitchy spirit, he felt impotent in the mist his sputtering. He does not feel very strong. Very often if I work with an angry spirits, you can feel it in the air, it is palpable. Your skin prickles with goose flesh and there is an unreasonable feeling of fear. Not with this guy. I feel the solid kindness of the gentle man completely over ruling the pissed off black man that is incoherent in his ranting’s, kind of surprised he found himself here. Why is he here? He shows me his spirit is like a magnet being pulled here to me, unavoidable and disconcerting. I explain who I am and that I can help him. His energy is very fidgety. He says he has been under the water for a long time. Hidden and stuck. He does not remember coming here. It seems like it is the first time he remembers being without his body even though he has been dead for a while. So angry verses very grounded. Seem like two completely different people. Troy {"side note: a Guide I work with who is not human} (don't judge :-) says he is a collected spirit, Chosen to cross over due to grace not his will, collected by the greater powers. He has work to do and forgot. {A quick note. Troy is a story for another day. He is one of my support people on the other side, a wonderfully funny, beautiful character.} Like so many, I think the gentle side of him is his spirit not what he was in this life time. The regal part of him is tall, dark and dressed in a long yellow straight robe, saffron I hear. There is a red stripe down the robe, he is black. I can tell the man in robes wants to talk but the other side of him is crazy, water coming from his insides. Debris he carries with him left over from his dip in the pond. A seething anger as a result of his life interrupted. I am going to bring him to the white room for clearing. He has jeans on, white t-shirt, black boots. He is thin and loves to swear, like it is on a sputtering loop and the switch is busted and runs forever forgotten why it began. Mother fucker, Mother fucker, Mother fucker. {side note: when I work with spirits that are distracted and uncomfortable, I imagine them in a complete white room. This seems to snap them into a place of listening which enables me to do my work in helping them}
In the white room I see his throat is slit. Clean and free from gore. Head still secure on his shoulders, just wore like a red velvet choker. I am shown a scene in the room. A group of men obviously on a mission, walk up, bend him over and slit his throat. I ask for protection and watch. They recede; he is still standing next to me. But he is a bit more collected and purposeful. He presses on me he was an undercover …. A cop. The goose flesh rises on my body in discernment, as I know in my gut what he says runs true. The anger that is seething was his undercover self-stuck in the false persona he has played to do his job. He played his part to the end. It was important for him to remain hidden from the truth. He was not killed for being a cop. He was killed for doing his job so well, he became his illusion. Sleeping with the wrong women and liking the false side of his job too much. He is a bit cocky about this. Apparently there was a part of him that was enjoying his false sense of security in the great big lie he was participating in. He feels he still wants to debrief with his captain, to defend himself against his sins. I feel the lie there too, very strong. It is about clearing his name and memory, not about true remorse. Even in death he plays the part of dirty cop and fantasy thug. The robed man asks me what I see when I look at the man with the attitude. I say I see beyond what he looks like on the outside; and then have a feeling that he was not who he was supposed to be. He has a message for me. We have free will. What we do here on earth is really of no consequence when we pass. It is about the experience and interaction between the people, finding our authentic part even if it is buried under a pile of humanness. Also, some are born to assist others in their purpose. Like the chore in a ballet, so very important but not the star of the show. They are the catalyst of many events that shape others’lives. Without the chore there would be no consequences to work out in life. If it was not for them, there would be no consequences to the actions of our lives to study the reaction …that is the evidence that is carried to the other side. Advice to the living. There are always road signs for the right path that has been designed by you before your birth, the feeling in your gut and heart. The people that come into your life and speak truth to you, even if you deny the information, you know it as wisdom about your life. Getting fired from the wrong job, running out of gas in a particular location, a song that plays on the radio, a bill board that speaks to you, one of the most important habits that we can form is to pay attention. All the ‘sins’ that are perceived by humans in their brains, the constant chatter of good and bad, right and wrong. Doing wrong then creating a pay system internally for punishment, all a waste of time. You will see it so clearly when you leave the planet. Guilt is the most wasted emotion. The Christian philosophy of asking forgiveness for your sins is solid advice. You do something that makes you feel bad, sit down state it as so. Ask to forgive yourself, because it is not god you need forgiveness from, it is yourself. You are loved by your creator no matter what. It is not god that punishes us; it is us that punish ourselves. Because the, oh so little part of us that always knows right from wrong. Our human perception of right and wrong is sometimes different that our spirits perception. That is what represents the rub of fear verses following your heart. This spirit is very adamant about our perception. We have become so concrete in our rules of society. Right from wrong has become a collective consciousness verses free will to think for yourself. To decide within your own mind what is good for just the individual, not to follow blindly because someone else said it is so. Standing by what you believe is right. Look at the attitudes of society that do not support a loving independent self. There are so many opportunities for forgetting. Relationships…number one, people, jobs, cars, houses, children, all ways to put your head in the sand of forgetting. When we keep ourselves so occupied and tied down with “I have to’s” even if they are created by our own doing…. It puts up road blocks that force us to take the wrong direction. He says there will be others that will come with information to break down the negative collective consciousness we have created. He challenges the readers to make a list of “I should' s” staying in jobs, marriages, paying for expensive things you can’t afford. He challenges you to untie yourself from the things you do that don’t bring you joy, that hurt you every day. The fear you feel is an illusion to keep you scared. The fear is the toll, braking threw the fear is the only way to get to the good stuff. That is our work here. I promise. There is such love and patience coming from this man. He is just here to serve. He says he is here with me to remind us to trust that feeling inside when you feel the nugget of joy rise with opportunities, to follow your heart and trust your guidance even if it sound ridiculous. I ask why he is here visiting me, the monk man. He shows me the black man in the white room. Presses on me, not words, but just knowing, “The man died wrong” he states. Not because he was murdered, but because he died not being himself. He was pretending to be someone he was not till the end, absorbed in the world that only offered him escape from reality. He chose wrong. He chose what seemed to be the easier road for him. In the end, when you deny who you are, you forget that you should even figure it out. The monk man and the undercover cop are the same person. They are a perfect example of free will. One is the person he became and the other is the person he could have become. The person that was hiding inside, knew the answers, but ran the other way. There is no regret, just the truth. What an amazing realization! I am so grateful for the presence of this beautiful spirit visiting me. Although he died a lie, in death he remains the truth to pass on his experience of bad choices, denial of our spiritual voice only results in a contemplative end of life review. No judgment. He says my job here is done. In closing I can only hope that I deliver this message with the truth shining through. He stood transparent in front of me, the mistakes made in his life so obvious. We have choices to make every day. His choices formed his life and death. In death, his life sets a perfect example of truth and consequences. I feel blessed that I can share these words with you today. I would like to ask those who read this to comment below if it resonates with any part of your lives. This is a good forum to get great conversations going. Thank you for your participation.
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,Ask 10 people what yoga is and you will get 10 different answers. It had a rich history before it came to the states. Some say it is old and complicated, a practice that should be taken seriously. Others say it is a form of physical exercise or maybe something to do with religion….. Again it can be complicated. I want to tell you my own description. I started this love affair with yoga about 20 years ago. Funny story, I have a bad habit of not taking library books back. OK, don’t judge, smile. Its part of who I am, I steal library books by accident and have often been found guilty of pulling over on the side of the road to dig up a plant or flower I just have to have. I love me, that’s just me. My first experience was using a library book and trying on each posture like a new pair of jeans. Some felt great, others felt like crap, and I always felt better after. It began as a purely physical practice for me. I was suffering with 2 herniated discs and during this time learned how, with yoga I could live a pain-free life. Over the years I started to understand there where so many components you could combine to help your whole self-feel better. I also learned what it meant to have yoga in your body. It was not just something I copied from a picture in a book, but a relationship with the way my body and mind felt on different days in the same posture or breathing method. Yoga is part of everyday of my life. That does not mean that I get on my mat every day. That to me means, I attune to how I feel every day. How I feel in my body and my mind. I now have the tools to adjust myself to create space and comfort because of my relationship with yoga. Also for the record, to me, yoga is yoga. All the fancy complicated words that name different branches of yoga, show us that it has been around for a very, very long time and different people from all walks of life have found different aspects of yoga to suit them most, then created a routine with that strength to mold their own twist. My definition of yoga is: Yoga is a word that encompasses many tributaries to get to the same place.That place being...an expert physician for your own mind and body. Tributaries such as, physical placement of your body, meditation to create space between your breaths to listen to what is really going on in and around you. An understanding of how your breath effects your being and how to control the workings of it to your advantage. An example would be, I have pain in my left hip. This pain I have noticed for a few days. I have been busy and working on noticing but ignoring it. We all do that, right? Then I think to myself enough is enough. Time to fix it. I pause and listen. This is my process of using yoga to maintain my joy. With comfort in your body, joy is much easier to allow and maintain. You go to the doctor when you don't feel well. I go to my body when I don't feel well. The doctor will exam you, pulse, lymph nodes, blood pressure, temperature, ect. I do the same for my self by using my knowledge of what is my baseline good feeling in my body and how do I feel now. Then using the tools of yoga that are in my body I breath and notice... breath and notice... breath and notice. This is where it all comes together. Our body is our textbook and no one knows that book as well as the keeper of that book. Yoga helps you learn how to read the book and understand how to maintain and refresh our bodies. The placement of your body (asana) lets you get in touch with the living memories in your tissue that needs to be adjusted or let go of. Our breath (pranayama) brings space into our body to allow the sun to shine and illuminate what is ailing us. Meditation, quiets our minds so we can hear so many messages from our brain, body, and spirit about what is going on and how to fix it. Put all of these pieces together and you have a very powerful medicine that is always free and at your disposal. At In2It Health Wellness Studio, I am offering classes for all 3 parts of yoga mentioned above. Physical placement/movement of the body, breathwork, and meditation. I am also encouraging everyone to try the Creative Self Talk classes that will assist you in reprogramming how you talk to yourself in you head. By changing the way you think, you can without a doubt create health in your life. Check out the calendar for classes offered http://www.in2ithealth.com/select-a-class.html Classes are very affordable. I am offering 2 free classes a week .... look for the "I Am Well" classes on Tuesday and Thursday. These classes are specialized for those of you who have been dealing with illness and discomfort for a while and deserve some unconditional love without cost. Please feel free to write or call if you have any questions about that class or any other little thing you may want to know. In Joy, Christina www.in2itheal.com [email protected] 860.501.3562 My mission is like a rocket that is finally getting to launch. Click here to learn about Christina Laughton Monday classes start, all kinds of classes. Restorative yoga, special classes to repair back pain, free classes for those who are ill and need assistance, creative self talk to create everything you want in your life, and meditation classes too. Click here to explore and sign up for classes. Prices are marked near the class name and if you click on the class name a description will pop up. After you sign up you will get a confirming email with an invite to allow you access into the class by using a link. 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There will be a 2 week workshop with 2 classes a week on Tuesday and Thursday starting 10/20 with a cost of $35 called Restore My Back Yoga. You can sign up for this class until the class starts on Tuesday. The class is geared towards those of you who have issues with your back, acute and chronic pain and discomfort and also those of you who "watch your back" so that you do not put it out again. I am sure some of you know what I mean. The class with introduce supportive yoga and movement, creative self talk, breath work, basic energy concepts and visual imagery to produce healing. We have 4 classes to get to know each other, each week building off of the next to encourage change in your life. Come take a chance, I promise you will now regret it. Click here for workshop sign up. |
AuthorMy name is Christina Laughton. I live in Wilmington, NC. I have made it a long standing practice study ways to achieve health and peace in life through allowing your true self to be seen. I have fostered many unusual abilities such as seeing, hearing and sensing the usually unseen. Then finding the understanding of how to apply this to your life, to bring a balance to your mind, body and spirit. When in alignment with yourself you will always bring healing to all parts of your life. Archives
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